Letting Go

 

Few months ago I have made a decision, try my best to keep people I know happy and satisfied with me no matter how hard it is, by that I mean I would make them happy, would never say anything to hurt them, and become a better person around them. one of the reasons why I wanted to do so was that I noticed Im losing some people around me, I'm not sure if it was me or them but for some reason I'm losing some really good friends, so the solution was to do my best and blame myself for that at first and see how it goes, but the big question was were they all worth my tries?
After few months I have found the answer for that question, not all people deserve all that after all. I had friends who responded very well to my actions and we became even better, those I would call good friends, those I would want to be around when I need someone to talk to, those I would rely on when Im in trouble, those are called true friend who would understand how much I try to be a better human being and I'm trying my best to show how much I care.
Thank you very much (M) for understanding and for being there for me, I wish you are reading this now so I can tell you how much I appreciate you giving me another chance to prove how much you mean to me and how much I love being your friend.
Thank you very much (A) for bringing in your true face, we were like brothers one day but after what we have been through lately I would say Im really indifferent if you were close or far, I have tried to improve and be a better person but when I needed you and you werent there for me that would make you less of a friend. It was nice having you as a close friend for a while but I think people do move on and its my pleasure to be a friend only not a brother as you say.
I know some readers might find this entry a little bit confusing, but I really wanted to get some stuff out of my chest, and remember a true friend is hard to get now, so if you have one now grab on him tight because you never know where life would take you.

Cheers :)